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I am shivering..I think record so far is 32 secs straight..

Excited ..

I have never been out on trip with friends for more than 2 days..moreover never in a place like GOA..


So but obviously I was getting really excited for this trip..We made travel arrangements even booked a room in some stinky lowly ( possibly..or it might be gr8 ) hotel which is apparently named Nikita Residency (coincidence and NOM)
I thought it would be legen .....dairy..

So events before the trip

1 : 2 out of 5 are in some sort of verbal duel and are contemplating not coming.
2 : other 2 out of 5 have decided to cut trip short to three days.
3 : 1 one of us wants to cut it short to 4 days..citing reason that 5 days would b bit too much..
4 : One of us is down with sinus infection, but hopefully will recover.

Me on the other hand ,Well how do I tell you how I am ..

I have cold,cough,terrible back ache and for the first time ever I threw up thrice to top it all I am not with my family..

ohh and professionally I faced an escalation which threatened my ratings and give some deal of stress..

To top it all I am seriously short on cash or credit or anything that can amount to anything of materialistic value..

Maid hasn't come since last 4 days and I don't think I have anything good remaining to wear either for goa or office..

Trip is due in 2 days (17th night )..

Simply great ain't it..

Once in a blue moon..

One in a while or at least once in a blue moon , you should behave irresponsibly ..don't you think so ?

Here is my story

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Me : Yaar aajkal bohot tension hai ,I am very stressed out to.Lets have couple of drinks today.

Friend : Ok,I'll come in another 2 hours lets go out then
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After 4 hours and 1 quarter of Whiskey ,1 quarter of Rum and 1 beer

F : Hey you drive,I don't think I'll be able to drive .
Me: Ok

/* Sits on bike turns on the ignition ,thud falls down on left side with bike, Somehow gets up , manages ( after several attempts ) to start the bike */

Our house is about 2 kms away and we reach there safe and sound..Just when I thought ok that went well
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F : 'Hey lets go to Baner '
Me : Man thats 5 km away from here, why do you want to go there its 2.30 in the night.

F: This would be a good opportunity for you to learn to ride a bike
Me : hmm..ok
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After reaching Baner

F : Nice driving ,lets go to e-square
Me : now thats another 5 km away why the f*** u want to go there

F: hey I want to see what movie is on,we can see the movie tomorrow
Me : But we can see that online too..why do you want to go now

F: Just drive man ...
Me : hmm..I am not sure I can drive that much .I don't even remember the way.
F :Just drive man ,I'll tell you the route

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/*After somehow reaching there and feeling victorious */

F: Hey ,I want to meet your cousin man..lets go to swargate
Me : There is no fucking way ,I am calling my cousin at 3.00 in the night .
F :call him ,Who knows he might be awake
Me : I am not calling
F: ok ,But lets just go there

/* this time I conceded without much protest..I was enjoying dirving bike in nice chill of night */

/* Just before we were about to reach ..he forces me to pull over the bike */

Me : Whats wrong with you man .
F: That police walla saw us,He is suspicious and is following us.You don't even have a license.Let me drive .

/* After 15 mins */

F: call your cousin,I have to meet him..CALL HIM CALL HIM CALL HIM
Me : man..(finally calls) ..No one is pickin up
F: Some cuz you have
Me : yeah the nerve on him ,not picking up call at 3.30 in the night
F: Come lets go

/* Instead of retracing our way we decided to go through highway ,longer but straighter road
*/


F :(Stopping rather abruptly )
Me : wt now ,man
F: hmm I can't see the road,you drive
Me : ok (Drives at speed of 50 )
F : go fast man this is highway

(He instigates me and finally even physically reaches out to race(accelerator) and makes me drive at speed of 75 )

/* At this point ,I dunno because of wind or what both of us get excited */

F: Hey lets go to lonavale its only 50 km away from here..It would be awesome
Me: umm..no..
F: go man go.
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F: hey even better lets go goa..

(stands up and shouts 'Go Goa Man,Go Goa ' )

Me: ( at t


*TO BE CONTINUES :p */

EGO - ?

If you know me ,you would have safely assumed by now that I have a bloated ego,which I would not deny (for time being)...Needless to say I have heard more than couple of times tat I have an inflated ego or that I am very rude bla bla..However one recent incident helped me introspect myself better...

It all came up when I was invited to one of my friend's wedding..It was suppose to be sort of cool grand reunion for my class mates..

It was day before wedding and I was travelling with one of my other classmate..and she was so excited about the wedding..she started discussing what gift to buy and where we would meet n all ,before I broke it to her that I would not be coming to the wedding .After punching me in shoulder she let me explain that I was not personally invited ..I had just got a mail..( not a personal one either :P )..She understood my point but insisted I come..needless to say I did not go..and it was a fair event and everyone had a galla time...


So ask my other friend how was it and she told me queerest thing..she said it was fun and all but 'dude' said that you were the only one who did not come..everyone else had come..

I was bit taken aback by that..I had not expected him to notice that or even expect me there ..Anyway I explained to her also why I did not go to the wedding..and she iterated the thing I have been hearing for quite some time now .."you big ego headed doofus.."..Later I came to know he was very busy on wedding prep and he had not actually called many people..all of them were invited through the same mail that I had received ..and as usual I was the only one to interpret it in different manner..


On more introspection I realized its not (issue )that I have a gigantic ego (which I may or may not ) its that I have an even bigger inferiority complex..

I automatically assume that I may not be needed or desired there..it is just the social obligation that I got the invitation..

This is a big break through for me,realizing its not my ego it has always been my inferiority complex..


So to all of you ( who would not be reading muhahaha ..) the reason I did not come on your stupid awesome trip..or to your wedding or to you house warming party or that I do not socialize with you..its all because of my inferiority complex..Which I agree is bad but unlike as in earlier case..I cannot be held responsible for it..I mean I can be..but this mean that Its not that I make others suffer because of my ego its that I choose to suffer coz of my complex.

ps : lost train of thoughts..I had something more to write
pps :he wan't very close friend ..I have missed wedding of much closer friends for abs no reason..:P so not exactly repenting or anything

Catcher in the Rye..A classic ?

Had heard rave reviews about it..Did not find it that great..

I mean catch -22 wins out on nearly all account when compared against Catcher in the Rye..


'+'

* Nice writing Style
* Has tendency to make you bit reckless yourself ..( lbeing less worried abt something can b positive :) )
* Gets you inside Protagonist's mind.

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*Not much to take out of it
*No story as such..

: Marriage :

Yes ,I am in tht age when my parents have started asking me about my marriage plans.
Here is the advice given to me by some of my close relatives


Ketan (My maternal second uncle ) :

Do not get married before you are 29 or 30, have atleast 2-3 girlfriends before you get married..then once you start understanding girls then select one and settle down with her..I am repenting marrying your aunt ..My ex was just so more beautiful and now that I am married and father of two children she wants to get back with me..So wait for all your passions to die out before marrying


Mahesh ( My paternal Uncle ) :

If you elope and marry ..I'll give you 50,001 Rupees :-)


Bhavin ( My maternal Uncle ) :

Don't you worry..tell me about her doesn't matter if she is Christan or Maharastrian or Punjaban..

at this point my Grandfather interjects : No Islam followers please

Bhavin :No even that won't be problem..just bring her provided you love her..I'll make everyone accept her :P


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At one point ,I realized no body actually expects me to have an arranged marriage .So given my personality and social aptitude ..seems I am damned to be bachelor through out my life .

Cheers to that thought :)

Me in Pune ,Parents in Mumbai on Dec 31st 2009

<11:00 pm>
Mom : Where r you ?
Me :hmm outside having dinner with friends

Mom : so whats the plan
Me :

Mom :where are you
Me : MG Road


Mom : hmm..thats good place also go to KP it would have few open air parties that you join impromptu..they would go on till 4:00 in the morning and you can stay out entire night..would be fun..but make sure u r at least 8-10 ppl in group..

Me : ..hmm ok..


PS: sadly ,enough due to overt security restrictions last year there were no open air parties post midnight

CoOl ?

If you know me,You prolly have realized that I am no biker boy ..I am not that bad boy neither do I have that machismo to carry that look..

So till now my only defense when someone asked me 'why I don't have bike '
was that my parents don't allow it..

One of my friend even suggested that I should buy an Activa and why it was a sound decision ..

I had still not decided if I would be buying Activa..so anyways I get ready to pitch the Idea to parents ( but individually that way I can tackle their concenrs and not let them gang up on me )

So

Me : Mom,m thinking of buying a bike..If oyu live in puen you ought to have you own vehicle
Mom :Yeah I now ,let me know if you are short of cash or anything .

That was one Whoa

Me : Dad, new ,bike, me, thinking
Dad : you should have got one last year anyway go for Honda's bike ...good engines and good service..


SO now I don't have reason to not buy a bike...I might just have to giving in to buying one ..

Possible ?

One far out benefit of getting sick is that there is possibility you may shed your weight a bit..

But trust your awesome mom to take even that away from you !!


In 6 days I have been not well and 4 days that I stayed at home ,I seemed to hve gained 2 kgs :D

MuSiC

I have exquisite taste in music..just like that of Bonobos..( actually their taste might be better )

But I can get obsessed about a song that I like and its quite common for me to hear the same song back to back for 3-4 hours ....

Most of the times songs that I like might be outdated but in gen quite popular like
'Losing your Religion ' by REM or 'Boulevard of Broken Dreams' or coming back home, songs from apna Bollywood like 'Dil Abadat ' from Tum Mile or 'Ae Nazini Sunona '...


I remember hearing this songs for weeks ..Which is pretty normal ...

However recently by chance I happened to hear a song and I fell in love with it..
queer thing is its not exactly a song from movie ,its more of 'Bhajan'.

Waiting to see how this freaks out my Roommates or Pleasantly Surprises my Parents
:-).

Whole Intention of the post ..to share the Bhajan.



You tube link :P

It has this sort of soothing effect :-).



PS: Nikita you would not be able digest it :P
PS2:mp3 version that I have seems to more soothing.

I Know I am not the one
who will share your every joy with you

I know i am not even the one
who will share your every sorrow with you

But i know i am the one
who will be standing by you during your darkest hour..

I know i'll be there with you
even when your shadow leaves you

Mother's Day

I do not celebrate mothers day per se..
nor do I gift my mother anything on that day..
I realize it sounds dumb and insensitive..

But for me gifting my mother on mothers day is like gifting myself on my birthday....
which I don't do..


I don't say I love you mum..for the same reason I don't say I love myself..
I know it would not hurt to show some sort of reciprocation to your love..

But it just seems so worthless infront of what oyu have givne me..:)